1 pointThanks for the link! When I get through here I'll go check it out. I've suffered from anxiety and panic attacks almost all of my adult life (I'm 35). I'm on high-dose meds for anxiety, depression and mood stabilization (borderline bi-polar). I talked to my psychiatrist last Friday and he prescribed a different high-dose anxiety med to work with the one I'm already taking. So far I feel "ok." I was able to go into a small store with Chris the other day for about 10 minutes (with my mask and gloves on). I had to sit in the car and do some deep breathing before we could leave and took a shower as soon as we got home, but I did it! Another part of my fear is that I'll be asymptomatic if I caught the virus and bring it home to my mom and children (2 out of 3 of my girls have asthma). I'm working really hard with my psychiatrist and counselor so that I can overcome this cuz trust me, I don't want it to be my "new normal" either! It's a horrible, terrible feeling. I really do appreciate you taking the time to look up information on agoraphobia. Most of my family doesn't get it and my mom and sister will say, "Just get over it." That's not something you can just do with mental illness. I thank God every day that Chris understands. I'm sorry to hear about your cancer diagnosis! How are you doing? And yes, the way health issues can completely turn your world upside-down is insane. I have a huge fear of being catching the virus, being asymptomatic and bringing it home to my mom and the girls. I couldn't live with myself if that happened, so I stay where it's "safe." My sister went to the grocery store a couple weeks ago for me and I was literally in tears cuz of the sheer RELIEF I felt. That's when I made the phone appointment with my psychiatrist. It does feel good to know I'm not alone. As far as goals go, we (Chris and I) have talked about a lot of them, but really need to sit down and nail down what our first one will be. Obviously we need a BEF ASAP. We need to pay off my car. I owe $1200 and since I paid $3000 on it when I got my tax refund, I don't owe an actual payment until Halloween. (It's a newer used car.) But of course, I plan to pay it off a lot sooner than Halloween, of course. I've got bills from the recent ER and doctor visits that I need to make arrangements on (I don't have insurance, trying to get Medicaid). There's just a lot I want to and need to do. The hardest part is figuring out our starting point even though I know this program like the back of my hand and know it works.
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