Well, I think I'm feeling better for now. I'm already worried about the holidays and a little depressed about them if I'm honest.

I'm just so ready to be done with this so I can move on with my life - but I can't change what it is and I can and should use this time to improve my situation as best I can and prepare for what I'm going to do as soon as the divorce is final.

First this is first - go out to dinner with some friends to celebrate the new chapter of my life.

Then I'd like to buy a small house - just for me and Levi with a hot tub in the back yard. I'd like to pay for it mostly in cash. I want a nice neighborhood, but I don't mind if the schools are big city - one year from today, that will be me.

So I don't know if I should talk about this - but I've been working on not drinking at all. I've had moderate success with this, I'm down to only having a few beers one night a week, but I've come to the point where I know that even two beers will interrupt my sleep, and face it - alcohol is a depressant, and I certainly don't need more of that in my life right now. So I'm done with the stuff - at least until my divorce is final.

Work is going well and Levi is doing great. It's so nice to have him. On the weekends I let him sleep in the bed with me, weekdays he's in his crate next to my bed. He's been great as far as potty training - he has not had an accident in months - so that's wonderful!

I won't think about the holidays yet. Just because this year is going to be different does not mean it is going to be bad.