I lost my login information along with the site bookmark so I haven't logged in in quite a while.
I read over my last blog post and I wish I could say a lot has changed. A lot has but a lot has not.
What has not?
- My mother. She is still very much into telling people what to do and it extends into other family members as well. She is still herself in all the same ways.
- My sister M and the driving. That was different and then they lost their car in the most recent flood. Since my older sister refuses to share or let her car be taken, mine is being used while I'm still in town. It's a mess. I'm not driving this time, she is, but I end up without a car nearly 12 hours a day if she doesn't work mornings too.
- My sister K. M works three jobs because K doesn't contribute enough to the shared situation which is why my car is gone so often. She hasn't changed a bit.
I have. My son and I stayed in our apartment for nearly a year. At the end, we sold some things, packed up other things and left to travel. It wasn't my best decision on the spur of the moment but it was the best decision. I ended up with an infertility diagnosis which I think spurred it too. I also stopped wanting to spend $600+ on rent (not that I could afford it well in the end anyway) and not being able to put money where I need it. We stayed in my hometown as our first stop and got to spend over a month exploring and staying with my grandmother. She ended up dying at the tail end of our visit so even though that was the worst thing, it worked out as the best thing. My son got to know her and I got confident in my ability to say what I did and didn't want to do.
After her funeral, my son didn't take it well and we ended up staying in town. Then we got stuck longer and longer and here we are working our way out again.
The good thing is -
My goal was to leave and work on the go so I could save up which has been okay. The longterm plan was to save for IVF, land and then to be able to build something tiny on it. We got our land at the tail end of last month! It's in a historic town with lots to do and it's about four hours away from here.
We have a lot to do with that but our main priority now is saving up for a better cash car and getting back on the road (more likely staying closer to the land) so we can continue to chop down our debt and prep our land. It will be a while longer until a trailer first then a small house is on it mortgage free but eventually we'll have a place of our own.
My mother asked about building something else on it for her and I felt confident enough to say no. I can help her find land but I cannot help her with mine. I'm finally feeling like, although I have this current car mess to get out of, I'm making a better plan for us that includes a little distance, work that I like and can do anywhere and some travel and learning for my son.
I'm hoping not to lose any of my login information again.