My attorney put together and sent me the paperwork for filing for divorce. I have to go in to the office tomorrow to sign it. It requires a notary so I will need to go in.
I'm crying like a baby. This sucks - it hurts - it wasn't supposed to be like this. It just wasn't. All of the people I have let down. My in-laws. My parents.
This is the hardest thing (and potentially the dumbest thing) I've ever done in my life. I really and truly hate myself right now. It was not supposed to be like this.
I have no idea how I'm going to keep it together.