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gmarie

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So we went for a checkup yesterday and found out the baby no longer has a heartbeat and has not grown past 7 weeks. I am devastated, but on the other hand know that everything happens for a reason, and we will try again in a few months. I also have bronchitis, and have been sick since 12/24, which happens to be the date of my first ultrasound that showed a heartbeat. (however the pregnancy did look a week off at that point which I thought was odd). The Dr said that being sick is not related, but I can't help to think that it could be, since both occurred during the same week. And, I have been getting worse, not better - I can't sleep due to the coughing every night, and had finally decided to take antibiotics yesterday since I was running a fever since starting the new job on 1/8 and I was afraid it would turn into pneumonia.

 

It's just crazy to think that the baby is not alive when I have all of the normal pregnancy symptoms (on top of being sick). So now I am out of work until Wed and my boss is clearly nervous I'm a flake - he called to ask if there is any way these issues could extend past Wed. He only hired two tax preparers so I understand his concern, but I assured him I will be fine by Wed, and then emailed him a few hours later asking if there is anything I can do from home over the weekend. Even though tax season doesn't really get busy until 2/1, I'm a little scared I will lose my job over this, but there's not much I can do about it at this point.



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I am so, so sorry.

We went through several losses in 2008 and 2009, and they were honestly some of the hardest times I've ever experienced.

Take time to heal and be kind to yourself.

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I'm so sorry! With one of my losses, the baby had been gone for weeks but like you, I still had the pregnancy symptoms. That felt so unfair!

 

Many hugs. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself time to grieve and recover.

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I am so sorry (((HUGS))) I had a missed miscarriage that I carried for 7 weeks past the loss of the baby (found at the 12 week checkup). I too had all the pregnancy symptoms and had no clue that something was wrong. I think those circumstances make getting that news at the ultrasound so much harder.  If you need to talk about any of it please let me know. I hope this is an easy process for you and that your bronchitis clears quickly with the antibiotics.

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So very sorry about your news. Know that many care and will be praying for you during the coming days.

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I'm so sorry for your loss. I have been comforted in these times by knowing that I have child in heaven looking down and watching us. Take time to heal and mourn during this time. Don't let your boss rush you through this process. Maybe tell him what's happening, and I'm sure he will understand and be empathetic. 

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This is such devastating news to read, especially after you tried for so long too :( I'm so sorry for your loss and I pray that your job isn't at risk on top of this bad news

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I am very sorry for your loss and hope that you feel better soon! Prayers to you and your husband and I would think your boss could be a little more understanding.

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Thanks, everyone. My boss responded to my email about working from home this weekend and he seemed relieved at the offer, but thankfully has not emailed me w/ any work yet! He does know what is going on, but I just started this job on 1/8, so understandably he is a little bit nervous. I'm sure it will be ok. I really like the job, and also I'm getting .50 more per hour than he originally offered me. It's not much, but any raise after a week sounds good to me! :-)

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I'm so sorry.  We have had two miscarriages and it is tough.  I hope your body and your heart heal soon.

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I'm so sorry! I have never experienced this and I truly don't know if my words would make you feel any better so I will just say that I am praying for you. Both for healing and for strength because you are going back to work so soon.

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So, yet another night of coughing, throwing up and finally sleeping sitting up on the couch. So much fun!  I just want things to be back to "normal."  I haven't even touched our budget or Quicken in a week!  And, it's so depressing getting all of the baby related emails, I'm just unsubscribing from things as I get them. But, I imagine it would be much worse if I were further along and had a name picked out, or a room set up.

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So sorry :(  I too suffered a miscarriage before my first was born...that was about 25 years ago.  I know how hard it is and I was so afraid to try again, but we did and now have two grown kids!!  I have learned that it really a more common thing than I was aware at the time, but know there are lots of women out there that empathize and can offer support.  Sending good vibes your way and saying a prayer!

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I am sorry. I can't imagine the loss you are feeling. Prayers for healing for both the bronchitis and your devastating loss.

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